I always knew you.
A thousand thank yous
Have been drowned
In my thoughts. Shoved under my
Pillow on many sleepless nights
I have held fuck yous tight
Between my teeth and thighs
Fearing always of
too much too soon.
I have never been one to hold my words.
Lately, I have been having trouble getting them out.
I am finding them, hidden beneath
Two years of guilt and confusion.